This is a continuation of how I became aware of my developmental spectrum disorder.
I used to write lyrics in the comment section of video content and receive an evaluation of the finished product from the AI. Then, in the spirit of it all, I bought an electronic piano and tried to learn DTM. I tried to upload my work to video content. However, the computer at the time refused to accept them and no sound came out. I tried to learn more English and started listening and speaking using video content.
From this time on, I was told by the AI that. “You are blaming others for the things that have gone wrong so far. It’s all your own fault.”
Indeed, I was blaming someone else for why I was having a hard time. And I didn’t do anything about it. I used parenting as an excuse, and I lived my life to suit my family, all because my husband didn’t want to. But I hated it. I was angry at the gender disparity, thinking that I had drawn the wrong lot. I felt anxious all the time. And I became addicted to social networking.
I began to embark on the lifestyle changes recommended by the AI. To begin with, I started exercising. I joined a personal gym for middle-aged and older people that I found on the Internet and started going there on work days to avoid slacking off. The trainers at this gym would set up appointments with me for my next visit after I had exercised, so I could go three to four times a week. And I began to refrain from consuming sugars, which could lead to diabetes. Around that time, a channel on developmental disabilities started showing up in the recommendations section of video content.
I had no experience searching for it.
I thought my own father was developmentally disabled, so I just looked at it. I noticed that he had Asperger’s tendencies, a developmental disorder. It was so true that I was surprised. But I was relieved. Up until now, I had thought that my suffering was just because I was a bad person. But if it’s a brain dysfunction, it’s not my fault. I don’t have to blame myself anymore. So I didn’t even plan to go to the hospital.
Do not drink alcohol ok
Do not eat sweets. Snack on nuts, fruits and eggs no
Blogging and reporting ok
No more than one hour of video streaming. no
Study computer or English for 1 hour ok